Since 'freezing' the forums 2 days ago, I have received several phone calls and a number of e-mails - all very nice except one e-mail.
Let me give some history here.
When I started this site it was late 1995 and it was only available to a few 'select' people by IP number. I started it so that I could communicate with some of the few people who had QS-9000 experience.
In the first week (?) of January I 'bought' the qs9000.com domain name and 'went public'. The site retained its purpose and, until about February 2001, remained entirely free. It was during late January or early February that I started selling 'Guide File Sets'.
Up until about 1 1/2 years ago I was literally swamped with business. I usually put the time necessary into 'maintaining' the site from hotel rooms - and what better place - away from home and I'm not a bar person. In addition, I was making over US$125 and hour week in and week out.
At that time server costs were not an issue. Server and software costs for 1997, for example, came out to just over US$2100 a year. That's 4 years ago - and prices have not gone down.
From 1995 through 2001 server usage (hits/pages viewed/ bandwidth - you name it) has gone 'through the roof. A lot of that was because of the site becoming well known, but it was also because everything was free. The pdf_files directory usage went through the roof. Mostly by people who were not at all involved in the forums - they would come and download every file they could and move on.
My last server report gave me the following daily averages:
Avg hits per day -- 51839
Avg page views per day -- 8120
Avg unique users per day -- 7696
Avg data (bandwidth) per day -- 787.85 MB
See
http://www.searchenginewatch.com for interpretations of log file analysis
Approximately 90% of unique users (and thus single page views) are from search engines where the person searching got the Cove listing hit but it was not relevant to their search. The rest are people who are visiting the site.
To top that off, the forums, which it seems many people enjoy, eat up more and more disk space every day. Not much daily, but the software I'm now using first went online in here at the Cove during June of 1998. Easy math tells us that's 3 years of messages - well, more than three since it's now August. But - the point is between 'free' files and space for forums messages I surpassed my server space quota. The next jump is another US$100 a month (where my 'main' site is now). For those of you with a mind for figures andf cypherin' (as Jeb Clampett used to say when talking about Jethro), that comes out to another US$1200 a year. Well, there goes my cigarette budget....
So - let's jump ahead. For close to 6 years, everything was free. But - for over a year now, jobs have become sparse as everyone and their brother is an 'ISO Expert'. In addition, the nature of the internet has changed. It's more and more a world owned by big business - and you don;'t get too many freebies.
For a long time this was much fun, as well. But after almost 6 years it isn't so much fun any more. It's more of what I define as work. Combined with a dismal year so far, the financial part also comes into play.
Understand that I have sat here for over 3 weeks doing everything from reviewing software to talking to 'Hosts' to try and solve some problems. Then I spent almost a week getting a secondary host set up, bought software (which as always promises far, far more than advertized) for several hundred bucks and - all in all - ended up with about a US$1200 bill. To add to that the software required a good, working knowledge of perl scripting - so, although I'm pretty fair on the basics, I've been up to my ears in perl scripting. I've drank more coffee than I did when I was in college some 30 years ago - I'm a tea drinker for years, but I'm briefly back to coffee -- the 'cheap speed' drug of those years of all nighters and endless studying.
Now add the final straw - I understand Apache and directives fairly well - or so I thought. Not only was I getting heavily involved in perl, I had to go back and dive into Apache directives (and, of course, how they work in concert, which is processed first, what stops processing, etc., etc.) including htaccess and conf files (just to name two).
In all this I was up almost all night on several nights trying to pull this all together so it would 'work' and was also affordable (for me as well as for users). As 'energy' wrote me in an e-mail this morning "Stress Kills". This has been a very stressful month.
When I read what energy wrote:
-> Al, My comment is this: In 40 days or less, I can create
-> a website just like this for free. Yea. What I said.
-> Other than that, no problem here.
I ask you to put yourself into my shoes. I received a number of e-mails expressing shock and dismay (for lack of better words) about that message. Particularly the 'free' part. While energy did write me an e-mail yesterday late wherein he said that he was actually referring to the 40 day free offer we were discussing in another thread, I (and from the e-mail I received others as well) took it very hard and I took it quite personally. Here I am wracking my brain on how to bring this all together in a way where people can find free information on ISO and other 'quality' issues yet still have the server pay for its self and I 'freaked'. If you want to call it a 'breakdown', then be my guest. I came very close to calling the two hosts I now pay for servers from and just telling them to shut down the servers and say to hell with it. I spend too much time sitting in front of a computer screen anyway.
I did not because of several e-mails, including:
-> Is there a treatment process for those of us in
-> withdrawal? *grin* Hope you're doing well Marc!
and
-> Marc -
->
-> In response to you 14 August 2001 memo in the Cayman Cove
-> Forums, I would just like to say thanks. Over the past
-> two years I have enjoyed following the postings of
-> everybody in the forums. I have personally benefited from
-> the information exchange and will be sorely missed.
->
-> I understand and support your need to start the " 'pay'
-> parts" of your site. And as soon as my own personal
-> budget constraints permit, I will gladly contribute and
-> become a member to support your continued work.
->
-> So again.... Thanks
I did get one e-mail I want to respond to:
-> Couldn't you have at least warned people who were in the
-> middle of conversations before you wiped us out? What
-> about all the stuff that has been contributed by outside
-> people who are professionals and contributed while your
-> site got the credit for it and no one minded? Are you
-> going to sell the stuff I contributed also?
->
-> My only problem with this is you gave us no warning and I
-> would really like to get in contact with the people who I
-> was in the middle of some issues with.
To which I say: When one gets something for free, one should expect little and be happy for what that person has received. As far as 'all that has been contributed', I suggest that I have contributed far more than any individual over the last 6 years.
I could go on and on - as you all know - but the bottom line is I am seriously restructuring the site. Including removing 'old deadwood' such as the files from the 'old' board. I really like them - I hate to dump them - they allow one to look through the history of ISO and QS - specifically interpretations issues. But - so it goes.
How this will turn out is still a mystery. I would still like to convert the forums to a much better software package (read set of perl scripts - some people don't consider perl scripts software per se) and some other things. But, just to remind, there is the financial end. And I'm just not sure how to approach it.
I do take some comfort in the fact that so many 'dot coms' have failed miserably in the last year - so I'm apparently not the only stupid one around (of course I won't mention that in most of those cases the 'upper echelon' actually did quite well financially).
For now everything will remain 'status quo'. I'm going to take a few days off to recouperate from my 'breakdown' and think about this whole mess which I so lovingly know as the Cove. In the mean time, you'll just have to bear with me. Or - if I have offended you in some way (or simply pissed you off) - you'll just have to find another site to keep you informed and entertained.
Marc